What a brat!

I tried to forget about yesterday, but I can't seem to get it out of my head about my dumb behavior. I'm gonna be up front with you and tell you that I was acting like a big brat to my parents. How old am I? Don't get me wrong, I really do love them and I would do almost anythings for them.

But for some strange reason, on this day, I wasn't that understanding. They had suggested that I help by mowing the lawn. I know it is my house, and so it should be my responsibility to upkeep the yard, but ever since they had moved in, my father has been the person to deal with that, he has always been the guy to do the repairs. I'm not afraid to get dirty and don't mind doing yard work, but with a schedule like mine, I really feel like I don't have the time or energy to any of it. At least that's how I felt.

So in the middle of "working", browsing the web and painting, I hear, "Kham can you mow the lawn?" I immediately felt annoyed and thinking to myself, I don't have time for this, I will just hire someone to do it." Keeping these feelings to myself obviously.

About a month ago my father had a heart attack and he is still going into the hospital for necessary checkups. He is doing fine, but still weak to do any heavy labor. Like any good son, he would say "sure dad" and help out. But I blew it folks, all I could think about was myself and how busy I am to even entertain the fact that I should go mow the lawn at that moment. I ignored the request and went on working. A short time later, my father comes down and ask if I could start the motor for him so he could mow the lawn, happily, I figured I could at least do that. So I put on my shoes and headed outside, and by the way, it was a beautiful day. I started the lawn mower and my dad took it from there. I stood there watching and realized, I am being the biggest douche in the world at that moment. I can't let my dad do this, so I walked over, took the lawn mower from him and continued to do the work.

Even though I had a change of heart, I still had a bad attitude, mumbling to myself, "why am I doing this, this sucks, I have better things to do." What is wrong with me? I later changed my attitude and finished the job. I actually enjoyed it, and having great weather helped out a lot. Luckily it was done because it rained the next day.

Why do I post this? I guess realizing how much of a brat and a whiner I was, will hopefully help me change my attitude and grow up. I also realized how much I was like Lamen and Lemuel, when they were asked to go back to get the brass plates and they whined the whole time. However, if there is one thing I do appreciate in life, it's my family. It is true that I would almost do anything for them, and it's a good thing people can change their ways, and in this case, ME.